A Time Of Grieving
After five and a half years together, my partner Michael and I have decided to separate. Neither one of us is lashing out or blaming the other -- we've just come to realize, after a year of relationship counseling, that we are on very different paths.
We are both hurting and grieving the death of our life together. We both still love each other, and in some ways that makes our breakup more difficult. We are still friends, and we are grateful for the time we spent together.
We will both be moving out of the house we have been renting, the house we had planned to buy together. Michael will be moving in with a friend next weekend. Kato the mystical cat and I plan to move in November.
I have always believed that Michael and I were brought together by Providence. I believe that the same angel who brought us together will continue to watch over us as we go our separate ways.
One advantage of being Episcopalian and having a Book of Common Prayer is that during those times when the heart is too weary and unable to put its prayer into words, the words are provided. The prayer I posted here a few days ago has been a huge source of comfort to me during this difficult time:
O God of peace, who hast taught us that in returning and rest we shall be saved, in quietness and in confidence shall be our strength: By the might of thy Spirit lift us, we pray thee, to thy presence, where we may be still and know that thou art God; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.
--The Book of Common Prayer
Darrell
www.WildFaith.com
We are both hurting and grieving the death of our life together. We both still love each other, and in some ways that makes our breakup more difficult. We are still friends, and we are grateful for the time we spent together.
We will both be moving out of the house we have been renting, the house we had planned to buy together. Michael will be moving in with a friend next weekend. Kato the mystical cat and I plan to move in November.
I have always believed that Michael and I were brought together by Providence. I believe that the same angel who brought us together will continue to watch over us as we go our separate ways.
One advantage of being Episcopalian and having a Book of Common Prayer is that during those times when the heart is too weary and unable to put its prayer into words, the words are provided. The prayer I posted here a few days ago has been a huge source of comfort to me during this difficult time:
O God of peace, who hast taught us that in returning and rest we shall be saved, in quietness and in confidence shall be our strength: By the might of thy Spirit lift us, we pray thee, to thy presence, where we may be still and know that thou art God; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.
--The Book of Common Prayer
Darrell
www.WildFaith.com
posted by Darrell Grizzle | 10:57 PM
11 Comments:
Darrell, I'm so sorry. My heart goes out to you both. I'll keep you lifted in my heart and prayers.
I'm very sorry to hear about this too. ):
Sorry for you loss. My thoughts are with you. Faith can be a real source of strength and clarity during these sorts of times.
Very, very sorry to hear about your relationship loss. That is so hard.
There are a lot more men in the sea.
I know I already commented, but I just wanted to come back and tell you that you are very much on my mind and heart. I'm lifting you into the Light.
Thank you, Twyla, and everyone else who has commented here. I have wonderful supportive friends and some wonderful communities I'm part of, here in Atlanta: my church, my Sufi group, the Christian Mystics Meetup...
It's great to know that I'm also connected to cyberfriends who are keeping me in their thoughts and prayers. I am truly a grateful bear.
Thoughts of you and to you from the other side of the world from Darryl to Darrell.
You know I love you and want what's best for you. Both you and Michael (and Kato, too) remain in my prayers. Be gentle with yourself; change takes time.
Sending lots of love and healing your way. Love is a mysterious thing, and courage toward truth is rare. Be gentle with yourself as you are with others and know that love is all around you. You know this, but it's always good to be reminded of it during difficult times. And when the shimmering love all around you isn't quite connecting to what you really need, call me up and we'll laugh over coffee.
Oh Darrell, I just saw this. I, too, hold you gently in the light.
One thing I notice is that when you write that you and Michael still love each other, you must share the kind of love that surpasses all understanding. That is, it is not just domestic love that you shared, but something greater within you that loves beyond boundaries. Now that IS love!
I love you Darrell. And in this moment, all is well.
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